Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Mommy Needs a TIME OUT!!!

Do you ever have days as a Mom that make you want to scream loudly "I NEED A TIME OUT"???

Here me out, I LOVE LOVE LOVE my kids and I wouldn't trade being a mommy for anything, but lately being at home all day every day with them is making me insane! I know if light of the recent tornadoes I shouldn't dare utter a word in complaint of my kids driving me nuts, my heartaches for them all, it really does. Buuut....all of that aside, I can't help but have moments that I want to just sit in a dark room in total silence.

Have you ever seen the movie Home Alone? You know the first seen where everyone is running around and it is utter chaos??? I feel like 80% of the time that is my 2 yr old...yes..Lena in herself is a 15 person chaos.  The child WAKES up with more energy than a whole room of 1st graders.

I have always wanted to be a stay at home mom...painting the glamorous picture of a perfectly kept house, laundry always washed, folded and put away, home cooked elaborate meals, time to work out and take care of everything in the house. Awww...beautiful isn't it?  Let me paint the REAL picture of a day in my house...The kids wake up before 7am. I try to decide which child to pick up first, generally opting for the potty training 2 yr old. I go into her room...(Great...her pull up leaked) so I take her to the potty, go back to her room and strip the sheets. Now Karson is real ticked in his room...but I need to take said wet laundry to the washing machine, get Lena new panties and clean up the mess. So I politely yell at Lena to HURRY UP...she gets done and makes a mess with the water..UGH!
Now that child 1 is taken care of, I go get child 2 up. Change him and then sit down to nurse him. Lena starts shrieking at me " I WANT ORANGE JUICE" over and over. I ask her nicely to wait as I am feeding brother...she continues to yell over and over until I get a sippy cup chunked at me. Alright this is how we are gonna play? FINE, NO orange juice for you until I decide to get up and get it.

Ok, now we are all settled. HAHA!! You see...I couldn't just quit my job of 5 years. I HAD to have a safety net. So in addition to my ever growing Mary Kay business (no complaining about that) I took on a work from home job. So in the midst of kids, I am trying to get work done. I edit resumes, I need to focus. Just when I think I have everyone settled...and can work...someone decides to get into something or fuss. So, I stop what I am doing and tend to them. I will get an hour of billable time in...only it took me from 8-12 to do it, lovely eh?  My laundry is NEVER caught up, the house resembles the wreckage of a tornado (Lena can pull out more toys faster than anything I have seen) and I seem to be a week on week off type of cook. Showers are hard to come by, the minute I turn on the shower, someone wakes up. If I attempt to take one while they are awake, Lena either gets in with me, leaving a trail of clothes I have to clean up or plays in my room, generally getting into everything, again leaving me with something to clean up. why are we called Mom? Shouldn't the title really be MAID?

Before I know it, it have only gotten a couple of hours of work in and its time for dinner. I look around the house and wonder what the hell did I do all day!?!?! I PROMISE you, I got more done when I worked outside of the home. I could take bills that needing paying, paperwork that needed done, um...the magazine that needed reading and could do it at the office during a down time. There is NO down time here....
Last week I really felt like someone, somewhere ALWAYS needed something from me. Kids, friends, husband, work candidates, customers, contractors...etc. At one point I texted Kyle and said "If you come home and the kids are here, but I am not, check the lake (we have one in front of our house) I may have jumped in" He replied with "Bad day?"
Do I feel like this every day? NO! (Lena goes to Memaw's 2 days a week. I get a lot done those days!) But I was to the point by Sunday that if someone asked me one more question, I may have just cried. Matter of fact...I finally got some time to myself...I went to the grocery store ALONE Monday night. Nothing spells relaxing like a trip to the store alone, trying to figure out what I will feed everyone all week.  On my way out the door, I looked around at the complete and utter mess and tears filled my eyes. I am HOME ALL DAY LONG...why is my house a total disaster?????  Am I failing at the WFHM thing?  probably so....

I have recently been taking time out for me. I have met some great girls that like to drink  craft and we have more fun just laughing like a bunch of old hens (think middle aged and at Applebee's on a Wed. night, we are the epitome of cool!) The only bad thing about leaving, is I come back to a bigger mess. Then I wonder, was it worth it to go out if I have to clean up twice as much?

Is it normal for Mommy to want a time out??? How do I accomplish such a thing?? I would love nothing more than to go get a pedicure and/or a massage. My feet are so rough, I think I could sand a 2x4 (too much info? sorry), but the techs are always so sweet and always want to talk. Me no want to talk, me want to sip wine and close my eyes! A massage is out because everyone I have ever had, they wanted to talk the whole time too and I don't want anyone to touch my gooshy parts.  A friend recently said she goes into her room, puts a pillow over her ears and just lays there for 15 mins. Awww...sounds like heaven!  Except for THEY. ALWAYS. FIND. YOU.

Whew...just typing that out makes me feel a little better. Could that time have been work hours? Laundry folded? kitchen cleaned? yes, yes and yes. BUT, I needed a TIME OUT.  (and before I could hit publish K was awake...30 mins of solitude will just have to do)

Wednesday, May 1, 2013


Well, I completed my 8 day cleanse! The results were stellar...9 pounds down and 12 inches lost all over my body! During this cleanse I only drank water ( A LOT OF WATER) and my protein shakes when it was the appropriate time. Now, starting this, I thought how am I going to go without my morning coffee !?!?!?  Friends, I am here to tell you I DID NOT MISS MY CUP OF JOE.  I wasn't just a one cup gal, I often times would drink 2-3 LARGE cups of coffee (although I recently had switched to decaf). I also had a craving several times a week for a Diet Dr. Pepper.  So, here I am close to 2 weeks later and I have not had anything to drink but water. (ok last night for my Anniversary, I did have some Almond Sparkling Wine..but it didn't "hit the spot").  So, I feel proud that I may be weaning myself off the coffee addiction.. Not that there is anything wrong with a cup of coffee, I just drank too much and my pearly whites were starting to reap the effects.  I also have NO desire to drink a soda. Now...I know soda is bad for you, but we all love the crisp bubbles on a hot day!

Back to the cleanse...I went into it nervous, yet hopeful. Could this be the kick start I needed? Yes, I believe it is just what I needed. You see, I just wanted to lose some weight. I feel good most days, right!?!? WRONG. I guess I had just gotten so used to being sluggish all day and living with a fog in my head. Since I have finished the cleanse, I feel amazing! It is like this FOG has lifted out of my head and I have so much energy!  For the last 5 years its almost like I was not the person I recognized. Horribly anti-social, tired, tended to be negative and just getting through the day. The XYNGULAR products have made me feel like my old self again! I am happy to see people, I want to see people and I can focus on my daily tasks! I know I have made a lot of life changes lately which have helped, but the tired sluggish feeling is gone! I am guessing there was a nutrient I have been deficient on for years and by adding the XYNGULAR Products it is assisting. I am so excited about this, I have started my sweet husband on some of the products...and if I had it my way my whole family would be on them!

Since I have completed the cleanse I haven't lost anything additional scale wise...but clothes are starting to fit better. Those are victories friends!

Oh yeah...We were talking about addictions... aside from Coffee, I would have to say sweets were my addiction. To be honest, if a waiter came to the table and said "you can have filet mignon  for dinner or Chocolate Cake, but not both" I WOULD ALWAYS CHOOSE THE CAKE! I LOVE dessert. My gut is living proof!  There aren't many desserts I am not a fan of (ok, maybe jello or banana flavored desserts). Having Chocolate in the house is dangerous. I will admit, I indulged on some treats after the cleanse was over (used cheat) but they just didn't taste the same! I would eat it and ok, it tasted good still...but I didn't feel good after eating it.  It didn't taste "worth it" to me. How incredible would it be to not crave sugary sweet crap all the time!?!?! THAT ALONE IS A VICTORY!

So as a check list aside from my inches and pounds lost, here are my benefits so far from XYNGULAR:
1) Not craving sweet foods or sodas and coffee
2) Not struggling to focus on work
3) sleeping so much better
4) Able to wake up without feeling like I didn't sleep
5) No more joint pain! (this includes my back...which is fused and hurts used to hurt all the time)
6)VISION IMPROVEMENTS! (I have been thinking for months I needed to go get glasses. Not anymore!)
7) ENERGY!!!!
8) More patience with my family
9) Much more social
10) I FEEL HAPPY!!!!!!! :)
(I also have not had heartburn, and I am a prescription medicine the heartburn is so bad person..haven't taken my meds in a week and I have had NO heartburn...WHOOP!)

HOLY COW!!!!! I am so excited to see what else it can do for me and my family.  As soon as my Xypstix are in...Lena is getting some! She will love it and I think it will help with her allergies and maybe help her mellow out (wishful thinking???)

I originally ordered and was going to do it for a month and be I feel so great, I want to keep going. I have decided to be a distributor as I want to help other people feel good inside as well as out! I mean...with my Mary Kay business covering outward appearance and this helping someone feel healthy...I am a one stop!
If you are interested in the products and what the buzz is all about, I am happy to help. I am telling you...I FEEL AMAZING!

With that being said....I have a 2 yr old that is potty training and I need to start our grilled chicken and veggie lunch! YUMMERS! Maybe next time I will have something clever to say...